I met a guy named Mark, two months ago. To me, he seemed, like every girls hope in a guy. He carried himself with confidence, had a silver tongue the mesmerized me with every quick-witted remark, and he made me laugh. Oh my God did he make me laugh. Did I mention he played guitar, wrote poetry, and sang? Dreamy huh. Those were just an extra few talents that I adored. The one that really caught my attention though was, his brute honesty. If I, or anyone else asked him a question without hesitation he would give you his honest opinion. Whether it be hurtful or not. What some people might think as rude, I thought as a promising characteristic in a guy.
Now, within the time period that I me him, and grew to know, still ever so charmed by him, I had to ask myself, "Why is this guy, this remarkable guy...alone?" One night, about two weeks after meeting him I found out myself. We were an hour deep into a conversation about relationships. Somehow, I messed up though. I commented his confidence in himself whenever he said it wasn't good to open up to anyone. In an outrage he yelled and threw me completely off guard. This guy who I had grown to know and respect, exploded on me, and hung up. I sat there with my phone in front of me astonished. The guy who I thought was so confident so, quick-witted and funny, had done a complete 180 on me all because I asked him about opening up. It was then that I realized, that he wasn't all he was made out to be.
Some of the most confident guys out there I guess are some of the most scared. I didn't really understand that until I met Mark. He confided himself and created this sort of alter ego to try and help him mentally block people out. While he felt so very scared at even the idea of getting close to a girl, he made his actions think otherwise. I thought he was crazy, and thought that he underestimated how good of a guy he was. Why not be in a relationship? They have a lot of benefits. Right? I was shocked at first to think hey, maybe this guy isn't who I thought he was, but really when I got to know him more over time, he was so much more. When I found out how scared he really was, I was more drawn to him. And still am.
Recently, we've grown into a relationship. We're friends. At first I tried to break down his walls. I tried to break down every wall I could with every trick, but unfortunately, I only broke down a couple. He made it very clear to me that he doesn't want to get close to anyone. He just wants to have fun and be single. I guess there are just some people out there who don't want to get close to others. Some just want to stay away from the relationship scene. But I guess really, maybe that's how we all need to start off first. You need to be able to take care of yourself before you get into a relationship and want to take care of them too. Maybe my good friend Mark, isn't thinking so crazy after all.
Now, within the time period that I me him, and grew to know, still ever so charmed by him, I had to ask myself, "Why is this guy, this remarkable guy...alone?" One night, about two weeks after meeting him I found out myself. We were an hour deep into a conversation about relationships. Somehow, I messed up though. I commented his confidence in himself whenever he said it wasn't good to open up to anyone. In an outrage he yelled and threw me completely off guard. This guy who I had grown to know and respect, exploded on me, and hung up. I sat there with my phone in front of me astonished. The guy who I thought was so confident so, quick-witted and funny, had done a complete 180 on me all because I asked him about opening up. It was then that I realized, that he wasn't all he was made out to be.
Some of the most confident guys out there I guess are some of the most scared. I didn't really understand that until I met Mark. He confided himself and created this sort of alter ego to try and help him mentally block people out. While he felt so very scared at even the idea of getting close to a girl, he made his actions think otherwise. I thought he was crazy, and thought that he underestimated how good of a guy he was. Why not be in a relationship? They have a lot of benefits. Right? I was shocked at first to think hey, maybe this guy isn't who I thought he was, but really when I got to know him more over time, he was so much more. When I found out how scared he really was, I was more drawn to him. And still am.
Recently, we've grown into a relationship. We're friends. At first I tried to break down his walls. I tried to break down every wall I could with every trick, but unfortunately, I only broke down a couple. He made it very clear to me that he doesn't want to get close to anyone. He just wants to have fun and be single. I guess there are just some people out there who don't want to get close to others. Some just want to stay away from the relationship scene. But I guess really, maybe that's how we all need to start off first. You need to be able to take care of yourself before you get into a relationship and want to take care of them too. Maybe my good friend Mark, isn't thinking so crazy after all.
As I first started reading this i thought, wow, who is thig guy she sould introduce me.. haha then i kept reading and i got a little bit confused but i know where your coming from. I know of some people that are exactly like him. The thought of getting into a relationship with a girl scares them so bad. I guess all these people with these feelings have reasons to think this way though, right? I don't see why anyone wouldn't want a relationship unless they've been hurt in the past. This really made me think..
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